
Sunday, July 23, 2006
~ 12:06:00 am ~
"You are a liar!" Well, a line that dar dar uses on me at times... Of course sometimes I really deserve it... Not because I lied.. but because i did or said something stupid that made her feel that way... When you hear that, it feels like you just got a slap across your face. You somehow feel that she does not trust you at all... But if you think about it deeper, actually she trusts you so much that she's hurt that she feels that you did something against her.
Well, Im not here to say if Im right or wrong... Im here today because I think my dar dar deserves justice... She has been hurt deeply by me this week. Perhaps, to many people, what my dar dar got hurt about may sound trivial to them, but it is in NO WAY trivial to me at all... I love my darling...So if my darling is hurt, especially by me, then it is my fault for either hurting her or or allowing her to get hurt...
Though dar dar and i have been together for a year and 4 months, there are still things that I have to work on.. I know it... Of course, first and foremost, I must let her know my whereabouts so that she does not ned to worry about me... I still need to constantly tell her I care and I really love her... I must not say things that will make her feel unspecial or unimportant, especially when they are not real... I must let her know that in my life, she is the most important lady and person. I want to melt all the broken pieces of glass to make a smooth and perfect mirror just for her... Most important of all.. I must let her know... Im not a liar... I never lied, I am not lying and I will never...
Dear... my heart is with you... Yes, I know it can be very tiring being with me... But I really hope you can endure everything that is happening now and I can show you what I said is the truth... I want nothing more than to live in your heart, be with you as you go through every action everyday... To care and worry for you when you need me there... Not to take you for granted for any reason whatsoever... Regardless of whether Im sick or not... Thats not a good reason... Dear... Im slowly picking up... The mirror will slowly be fixed... And I promise you the mirror will be perfect...
Dear dear... I just want to say... I love you... with all my heart and in every little bit of my life... Please be open to me and help me dear.. mend this mirror with me... We do things best together...
Oh I miss you you know
How much you mean to me
Where are you now
I wanna be with you
Loving you always,
YOUR twit....
4ever